It was the last day of school; I was preparing to go home for one last time. I told him that I was going to London for a couple of days before going home. He sent me flowers, thinking that this was the last time we would talk on the phone. I did not know what to tell him? thank him for the flowers? and tell him what? I knew our relationship was going nowhere and I knew he did too. I had to break it off so that he would move on with his life ?.I thought this was the best I could have done.

His parents were pressuring him to get married as he was already on the threshold of thirties. He wanted to get married and asked me if he should buy me a ring and talk to my parents? I didn?t know what to tell him, I was excited and I wanted to say yes a thousand times. But little did he know that my parents had picked someone else for me and I was to get married soon. With a heavy heart and the dozen roses I left for London. Everyday the roses seemed to dry up and my hopes of marrying my prince charming weathered away. Nothing seemed to cheer me up? the square, the museums, river Thames, Madame Tussads. All I could think was did I do the right thing? I was drenched in the memories of our times in 5th Ave. The songs we sang together, the near by Thai restaurant, the flowers he used to bring me after work and how could I forget the day when I got locked out? the door was such. I should have known then the door once welcomed me would never allow me in forever. I wanted to call him and tell him that I was sorry that I messed up his life and that even if I wanted to I could never be his. I burned in the agony with the guilt of having a dual life.

To Be Continued

ye dc badkaula ma adesh lagne bhayera ma sanga jori khojda ta ahile tuppi ma samatera ringayera pari ban ma pugne gari huryaideula ni
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tilkumari wat does your name mean? and damn u really do know how to talk to ppl hahahha....keep it up.

Hareyy USANEPTICHICK hehe
Please read my lines carefully....
you said," so ur lucky that u ain't my boy"
I said,"Well.. if u say so chick? :) but lemme know when ur a woman? I would consider being ur man.. I promise eheheh :p? "
I would imagine that it is crystal clear that i was pulling ur leg that ur a lil gurl.. and i am a man.. ehhe... and thus, u lemme knw when u grow up and become a woman...
Anyways, if it makes it any more easier to understand.. I am a man, I knwo ur a female of the species ehehe.. aigiht later ;)
Phewwwwwwwwwwwww
Indisguise:)

God i aint a lil girl....wat makes u think that? Hehe ' i'm not a girl, not yet a woman' and i'm sure u r ' not a boy, not yet a man' aint that right? Hehe, i just like making fun of you, please don't mind. So wats up? Where abouts r u? If u don't mind telling......hehe....don't be scared......remember i'm just a lil girl?

USNEPCHICK and Indisguise, lost in translation!

:)



Joytipradhan, thanks for sharing. The deeper the grooves of hurt, the greater the capacity to love!

Not much USANeptiCHICK :p..... what abt you...Nahhh I don't mind :)... but didn't u contradict urself...
"Hehe ' i'm not a girl, not yet a woman' "
"......hehe....don't be scared......remember i'm just a lil girl? "
Anyways... I am from where you are. Nah I don't mean I am your shadow, but well.. perhaps it would not be that bad of an idea, would it?;)
And Sitara, Yep looks like we are , aren't we? :)
Nevertheless, compared to you and confused, we are much further behind eheheh:p
All in Jest,
IndisGuise:)
P.S: Happy Tihar to all.... and many goddess laxmi would smile at me and THEN only to others hehe.:) JAi hossssssssss laxmi mata ko.

Jyoti ji after reading your story I feel like crying now. I know exactly what you're going through. Nice touch at the end with that beautiful quote.......... Peace Out...............

Indi....c'mon tell me where u r......i wont come there n rape u or anything.

Woahhhhhhhhhh... USAnepTIChiCK hehehe...
Thanks for the assurance.. but am still shivering... hehee
I told you where i am from... ur nick suggests ur from US... so there you go...
In all probability, we both are in the same country.
Wanna know more ;)
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
Indisguise:p

yeah i wanna know more....where abouts in the states? i am in the east coast.....hehe.....tell me more aaight? by the way......u have a great sense of humor....and plz take that as a compliment.

Thanks for the compliment.... I can already feel my nose getting an inch bigger.,.. hehe.. Anyways.. as of now... i am somewhere in mid west...
Mind telling me which state you are in?
I swear m gonna keep it a secret....:p...
waiting..
IndisGuise:)

Hehe, i'm in the state anywhere between PA and FL......now it's upto u to guess the right 1. So wat else........how old r u? Ehehe

Darn... hahah there are so many... DE,MD,WV,VA,NC,SC,GA.......... Hmmmmmmm
But my gut instinct tells me it should be either VA or NC... or a distant posibility .. umm could be SC.....
And common now... am i supposed to publish my bio data in sajha... :s
Anyways.. here is a hint... i am somewhere between 10-30 yrs old...(just following your footstep)
I guess thats all the information i can give here :)... more if we ever meet... heheh;)
Adios,
IndisGuise:)

"Lip it!" "Lip it!" "Lip" Indi's guise! (Lost in translations again! :P)

Ummmmmmmmmmmmmm.....
I am Sitara.... trying to understand humor behind ur "Lip it" hehe lol...
I guess.. m lost in traslation again..:p
My guise... hmmmmm... now now... what could that be...
Wondering..
IndisGuise:)

Indisguise, did you ever get to see the movie? Well, Bill Murrey is in Tokyo, Japan when a Japanese "massage girl" asks him to "lip(rip) her stockings". Ok, translate that:

"lip it!" "lip it" "rip" Indi's guise(mask!) = reveal Indiguise's identity!

although, you two are not doing a bad job either! :P

indi.......it wasnt funny.....how am i supposed to guess your age now? i bet u r an old guy trying to be as young as a 10yr old.........oooooooo pedofile. i=scared

Yes Sitara, I know the movie... but i have not had a chance to watch it. Heard its really good. Although I would not want to rip anyone's stockings :p, I would imagine there would be lots of other interesting moments.
Hmmmm looks like NeptiChick is pretty fast to judge me. But I have nothing to say..I hope ur obsession with terming people as pedophile would be cured soon. And don;t be scared lil girl... i reckon its about time that i should be scared of you. hehe ;)
Searching for salvation,
IndisGuise:)
P.s: About rippin my mask... Sitara
"Another belief of mine: that everyone else my age is an adult, whereas I am merely in disguise." -- Margaret Atwood
:p

ok bye indi

Lau Maryo... kasto interesting thread ma USNEPCHICK le "Ok bye Indi" garera FULLSTOP nai lagaidiyo!!! HEHE!